Why I write, September 28, 2010

This one is a little newer from my very first quarter at UCSC.  My first assignment for my creative writing class last fall was a response to the question "Why do you write?"  Apart from the bit about knowing no one who cares (I found my people) it is still true.

Why I Write
It is ironic that when asked why I write I am at a loss for words.  I suppose that I write because I rarely have nothing to say.  In a world where spontaneous verbal outbursts are generally frowned upon, writing becomes the only viable outlet.

When I began school it became apparent that the way I chose to communicate would never be understood.  My teachers and peers did not appreciate my “excessive” interest in the randomness of life.  It was only when we were taught to write that I could spend my days expressing myself.  The scratch of my pen was easily mistaken as the execution of times tables.  When I write, I can say anything and everything.

Recently a friend of mine asked me what my ideal job would entail.  After a moment of thought it came to me; I want to talk all day long.  Naturally, she suggested teaching.  But she didn't understand.  I want to spend my days talking about the things that interest me: my everyday musings and observations.  Things that matter to no one, but affect everyone.

I want to spend a four-hour car ride contemplating the invention of the automatic seat-belt. Who came up with this creation?  Were the government and car manufacturers in alliance to encourage car safety?  And why are humans so intent on such simplifications?  As you can imagine, not many people are so fascinated by my boundless curiosities.  But I would suffer greatly without an outlet for all of my questions: the things I need to know and want other people to think about.

So I write.  I write because I know no one who cares.  I write because I know there is someone who cares.   I write for my own sanity.  I write because with my pen I can translate the language of my mind.  I write because it is the only thing I have ever loved.  I write because words are my medium, my art.

Wolf Pack, March 1, 2010

I found this in my google docs. I really have no explanation for it, but I thought it was pretty hilarious so I've decided to include it.

You emphasized the wrong word.  I think you meant I AM the wolf pack.  Incidentally, I AM the wolf pack.

On The Letter from Birmingham Jail, Fall 2008

This is a write up of some in-class essay I had to write from my AP Lang class Junior year.  Total crap.

Rhetorical Strategies for Persuasive writing: A Letter From Birmingham Jail
In his Letter from Birmingham Jail, Dr. Martin Luther king Jr.  discusses the pain caused by racism and segregation.  He communicates the feelings of isolation and humiliation that African Americans are forced to endure at the hands of racism. Through his use of serious tone and emotional diction that appeals to pathos,King explains why he and other African Americans can no longer "wait" for equality.

King’s tone throughout the letter is serious and establishes the fact that African Americans are suffering.  His use of the phrase "stinging darts" suggests that he is hurt directly by racism in American society.  This imagery is an implication that the white clergymen he is addressing might not see how serious the situation is, but simply consider it a game.  White Americans have not had to suffer through the pain that African Americans have endured.  King wishes to show the reader that he cannot wait when this sort of injustice is still happening.  He explains that people are being "lynch[ed] at will."  This statement clarifies that the laws are not being followed by either side of the issue.  Clearly the government does not have control over what is happening to these people and this lack of control applies to the African Americans themselves.  King does not take the issue of segregation lightly, and uses his tone to communicate to the American people that they too should stand up against the injustice.

The emotional diction that King uses appeals to pathos and is a primary rhetorical strategy used in his argument.  His biggest appeal is the use of familiar terms such as referring to his fellow African Americans as "[his] black brothers and sisters."  The idea of the unity he feels with his fellow black man makes them seem more like a community.  At this King assumes that the reader will think of their own family and their own community being harmed.  From this point of view people can understand his need to protect his family.  King also uses an anecdote about the tears in the eyes of his, "six year old daughter," allowing the audience to better understand and sympathize with their pain.  He uses his young children to show that innocent people are being victimized.  Through the use of this story as a method of appealing to pathos, King associates himself to every parent or family member who reads his letter.  The idea of his "twenty million Negro brothers smothering in an airtight cage of poverty," is sickening.  The imagery in this statement implies mass amounts of suffering.  The pain that the poverty brings about is like a slow death that they cannot escape.  It is almost unbearable to even imagine this sort of agony which is exactly what King intends.  King wants the reader to know that the only escape from this "cage" is to no longer have to "wait" for liberty.

The grief that is brought about by segregation and racism in America is clearly displayed in King's letter.  By showing white Americans exactly how he and his, "Negro brothers," are treated, he is intending to open the eyes of his audience.  He invites them to see the pain in the lives of the average African American, and asks them to understand why he can no longer wait for equality.  He knows that the law is unfair, and he has to break some in order to change his world.  

Body Image, February 3, 2010

Another work for my community college, this time English 1B.  I am left to assume that these assignments were primarily intended to express opinions.

Body Image
With the fashion industry and the media focusing on women and men who have bodies beyond the realm of possibility for the average person, unrealistic expectations have been set for young, impressionable girls and boys.  While clothing no doubt looks better on a lithe figure, the use of these images in magazines, movies, and the media have caused body image distortion.  This is particularly apparent in young girls, who may become unhealthy as a result of trying to meet these excessive standards. 

As a young women in this society, I find this practice to be harmful, but not the only cause of self-distortion.  Women in magazines and Ads are often too skinny.  This leaves girls with the idea that it is unacceptable to be a natural healthy weight, but occasionally these images are offset by fit, powerful women who are not outrageously thin.  It is important for young people to understand that the women in these magazines are not average, and should not be emulated to the point of extremes.  Magazines and media are not the sole cause of unhealthy body issues, however the expectations they set are harmful to young women.  Instead of advertising absurdly unhealthy women, magazines should focus on women who have healthy, fit bodies who would be good role models for young people everywhere.

This is what ROBERT FROST is reduced to in the 12th grade, October 25 2008

THIS is the type of BULLSHIT assignments that I had to do in my senior English Lit class. In order to graduate early, I had to go from AP classes to "regular" education.  I remember I specifically dumbed down my answer because my teacher constantly yelled at me for my "expansive analysis." I have to say that this class made me ashamed of the K-12 education system in California.

Mrs. Irwin
World Lit
25 October 2008

The Road Not Taken

What does Robert Frost discuss in his poem, The Road Not Taken?

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DIFFERENCE(12,10,NW)
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Robert Frost's Poem, The Road Not Taken, is about the hesitation one man feels when choosing one path over the other. In a literal sense, Frost discusses the wariness one feels when they come to a fork in the road and must their way. It may also be perceived as a poem about life choices. Every decision a person makes may change the course of their life. In this poem, Frost expresses that pondering of whether or not his choice was right.

Changing Ideas About Women June 25, 2008

This is a paper I wrote for my Women in Art class at Saddleback College in 2008.  I would have been going into my senior year of high school.  I have no idea what the prompt was, but I am sincerely hoping that it was meant to be an opinion piece about the evolution of art in relationship to cultural constructs.  Who the hell knows, but I got and A in the class.  Try not to let that make you doubt the system too much. (Photos were included for contextual purposes.)

Changing Ideas About Women
In art, women have almost always been perceived as sexual objects. Whether the artist intends for the painting, picture, or film to portray women as vain nymphomaniacs, it can be argued that this is how most viewers see them. This lead to people not only believing this of the women in the artwork, but women in general. Beginning in the mid 60's and throughout the 70's, people began to make more sexually explicit films. These films showed women in more compromising sexual situations. Throughout time women have been shown as secretly seductive. In pieces in the eighteenth century, a painting of a young women writing a love letter might have been considered scandalous. People would believe the surely this girl is thinking impure thoughts, as all women do. As these films in the 60's and 70's were being made, women were no longer only thinking impure thoughts but acting them out as well. It may have seemed to the creator of the film that he was making women seem more independent, but instead it made women look even worse. It gave males in society even more of a reason to look down upon them. In her book, Vision and Difference Griselda Pollock explains that being a women is not necessarily an inborn trait. She explains that another writer, Elizabeth Cowie, writes that to be a woman is not decided by biology or society but rather to be a women is the act of not being a man. These beliefs are further shown in biology and society by the products of media and art. If an artist wishes to change the ideas and beliefs that femininity entails then they have to portray a women in a way that cannot be seen as purely sexual objects, but rather as actual beings.


Julie Christie starred in the film Shampoo released in 1975. This film was about a man who had sexual relations with many women, while maintaining a “personal” relationship with one particular woman. The women committed adultery and chased after the man in the film. They were not portrayed particularly modest or chaste fashion. The women all chased after men and relied on them in their lives. Christie played the role of a women who escaped the clutches of the hairdresser that had so many sexual relations. The writers, Robert Towne and Warren Beatty may have thought that by liberating this woman they were showing women with more independence and status in society, however she was actually shown as a gold digger who only cared about money rather than actual love. Pollock quotes Elizabeth Cowie, “'Film is a point of production of definitions but neither unique and independent of, nor simply reducible to, other practices defining the position of women in society.'”(Pollock, 43). In saying this, Cowie shows that although filmmakers may try to project different views of women, they are no different than the works of art that are displayed in museum. They will portray women in the way that they are perceived in society, whether that was the intention or not. In this particular film, Christie is still shown as a narcissistic nymphomaniac just as the paintings of Eve, or the eighteenth century painter Pietro Antonio Rotari's “Young Girl Writing a Love Letter” were perceived during the time that they were painted. Although films were generated during the twentieth century, and became most popular during the most prominent years of the women's movement, they have done nothing to help the image of women in society. Although they have made the idea of sexual independence for women more feasible, these films did not make women seem independent in other aspects of life; such as financially or emotionally.




Recently, artists who have seen the perceptions of women remain unchanging have attempted new types of art that portray women in different ways. These pictures are generally not sexually related, but make women look odd and in some cases ugly. In one untitled photo by a recent artist named Cindy Sherman, a woman is shown in a distorted way. The area around her eyes is painted white, and her stomach is protruding as if she is pregnant. Her facial expression is intense, and somewhat frightening. Her hair is spiked up in a androgynous fashion. Although her skin is shown, and nipples are visible, it is not shown in a sexual way. She is not over sexualized as many paintings and photos show women. She is distorted and would be considered ugly by popular culture. Apart from her breasts she does not seem to be of any biological sex. Her hair could be short like a man's, or put up like a woman's. Her shirt is collared like one that a man would wear. When looking at this photo a viewer might see it as sexual, but most likely people will view her with curiosity, and have to take a second look to decide whether it is a man or woman. This kind of art has become a way to show women in a new way. She is not in a vulnerable position nor is she over exposed like most women in art. Now, when this photo is being looked at, viewers will not look at is and think immediately of feminine stereotypes. They will have to concentrate on the photo to understand its meaning and look at the woman as an individual rather than part of a group that has never been well perceived.

With this sort of contemporary art surfacing, women might not only be seen as sexual beings. The independence and individuality of women is better shown through these pieces than they had ever been in any other forms of art. These feminist artists are using the distorting of images to make people think more about the actual existence of females rather than the idea that to be a woman is to not be a man. Women will become recognized for their impact on society around the world. Film has become better at portraying women in this way, however these ideas still need to progress, and these forms of art will only assist this process.

New Project! The Archaeological Dig into my Creative Past

As I am about to graduate with a B.A. in modern literature from UCSC, I have begun to recognize my own potential for growth in relation to my academic history thus far. So, since: a) no one reads this blog, and b) I am not currently writing anything outside of my classes, I have decided to something of an archaeological dig into my "creative past."  I am searching my google docs and my gmail archive for all things literary that I have written and I will post it on my blog.  I realize this might be incredibly embarrassing but it is true.  I am fascinated by the opportunity to understand my own intellectual development and the evolution of my writing style as I have wondered (that was a typo but I've decided to stand by it) the lovely path of public education.  Should be quite a journey.